A stare that can't be forgotten!
A mark that stays for a long time.
The price that gets me the most when I'm most vulnerable.
I fell over flown with emotions,mixed emotions that don't help.

Why must it always end like this?
Has fate really given me the curve ball?
Has life really gone down the drain?
Will it always end up like this?

Family,friends,relations...
...they all mean the same to me!!
Suffering, pain,and whimpering...they are all symptoms to the same disease.
I've been cursed with such a soft heart, a heart that breaks easily.
One that must save others from their own demise, their own torture, their own bounds.

I've allowed it to get this way and now I can't control it.What once brought joy and happiness to others, now only brings pain.
I'm stuck on a dead end with no means of ever getting back.
I made a choice to always help others regardless of the costs.
A price that always ended up in more suffering, not from the one being rescued...but to the poor tortured soul that doesn't know anything but help.
How pitiful,how shameful!

To live a life that knows nothing more then pain and loneliness.
One blessed with good friends and very good relations...
but one that is constantly unstable.
One that is slowly being eaten from the inside out.
A soul perfect for a shield, one that is almost like a sponge.
Never complaining, never doing wrong to others.
That's my life and that's what will become of me.
I just know it...time's up and there is no means of escaping.
I'm sorry that I couldn't be of any help................